I’ve never had to think about my sexuality before. It’s kind of scary now that I’m actually doing it and it gives me a whole new respect for those who have had to think about it before rather than just being like “oh hey, I’m *insert sexuality here*” and being done with it.
The more I hear about asexuality, the more I identify with it. I have no desire to have sex anymore. Well, I do, but I don’t… I want to have sex with Yeager because I love him and care about him and want to make him happy, and it makes me feel really good to make him happy. Also, it feels good when we’re doing it. Trust me, it feels great. But I never initiate sex anymore. I consider myself to be a very sexual person, but at the same time, I never really feel “IN THE MOOD”. Although I am attracted to Yeager and find him to be extremely sexy and wonderful and all. I don’t even know. It’s all very very confusing to me, and if anyone has any advice or information or whatever about asexuality or just their own experiences, please let me know? I’m very confused.
*Please note that I am on anti depressant/anxiety medication, which I have heard decreases sex drive.